I FINALLY talked to my cardiologist today for the first time since my surgery was cancelled on the 18th of February. He thinks that we need to continue on and find a surgeon that will do the surgery. I am not so sure. I do not want to repeat the past four months and I certainly do not want to start this process over.
There are so many thoughts/worries/concerns/scenarios/etc…..going through my mind. I just want so badly to slam the door on this journey of “heart surgery.” It just never ends. My mind was finally at ease with NOT having surgery – I can’t even imagine gearing up for surgery again.
There is a reason that I have not had this surgery yet…..
Please pray for direction/peace/perseverance.